cough cough cough

day 16

shit....really damn bloody shit....i keep on coughing and coughing non stop..whether in the bus or @ the workplace, i still cough...what should i do..how am i going to work this thurs? omg...what should i do? mm....should i stop working for a while...will the manager scold me?mm...i think so ba...these few days keep raining...and my moods is still the same. i miss "him". thats all...life have to go on..earth is still turning...i am getting older...so, i must change.i loves raining season...if i cries, nobody able to see it...realise my friends have some kind of fling too outside...prephas, everybody is not sure what they want for life mah...when your parents give birth to you, do you expect to fall in love? do you expect yourself to be hurt by a guy that you love deeply? mm...i am not sure...this night, my dear and my mei mei chat with me...i feel comfort...thanks for everything that you all done for me...if not...where am i? will i be doing foolish things? i bet not..i am a grown up girl..let people know i do foolish things, the 1st things they will do is to laugh @ me and say me stupid..and then say me bo liao...dont know how to think for myself and for my parents....cannot so selfish...by doing childish acts to win back a guy or a girl...i will never do and i will never forgive a person if that person ever do that...its not worth it...my throat is getting itchy...shit..mama pour for me warm water liao...so sweet...so thoughtful..so nice....thanks mama....good night mama..my mama is going to sleep...me going to watch tv...