finally knows who .......HapI mooNcakE festival

haha...so, now i know who is hazel...keke...finally got a clue liao..i think she is the hong kong girl...unless i remember wrong lah..wat the heck..me is still me...whatever i do, i need not report to them...haha...my hunter was telling me yesterday that he is watching some hong kong show as hong kong dramas everytime got this kind of situation...haha..cool hor...

lucky, my didi and my friends stands by me...or else i die...so, hazel, stop stalking me...i am getting fine...i know you are getting fine with your puff...she is your puff right? i am also belongs to someone bunny...so, i am not sharing any carrots with someone...there is only one carrot that i wants to share with...

mm..today is tuesday...so boring....i wants to sleep...yawns....me so hungry too...omg...i can hear my stomach calling me to go find food...haha..oops...better not let my claasmates heard it...hee..keke... HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL TO WHATEVER READING MY BLOG....

huh? i beg your pardon?

siao boh...yujing put 2nd degree lor..dont tell me you dont know...how am i suppose to know who are you..you are really testing the water....haiz...what to do..if you think you are so right, then go ahead lor...i cannot stop you what..you have your own right...that is your hands, your fingers, your computer, your keyboard...who so free to stop you..bo heng ah...go out rather than wasting breathe...phew... keep saying i look at her frdster?? i think you two keep looking at mine!!

maybe you can start telling me who are you lor...i am not good in guessing..and why should i lie..nothing better to do ah...you think i so free ah..i got tons of homework waiting for me to do leh....i look at her frdster??? why dont you say she look at mine...i eat finish nothing to do ah....

ok, regarding about that matter, all my close friends give me plently of advise on what to do..i have not left out any single details...and they respect my decision...and i believes that this oni involves the 3 of us and why should you enter into this pic for what?? why lor?? i thought this issue has been over..he will not be back into my life again...so, why do you keep asking me?? i have told my friends that yujing's friends have been contacting me...they say for what? its not your business...it doesnt involve you...you are just an outsider.....pls be reminded lor...

i am currently enjoying my life as a single...joking, talking crap with my friends...and i thought as long as i have memories of the past, it will be fine..i dont wish to talk about it..and what did you did? saying i am a liar? who are you to say i am a liar? and you keep bringing up the past.....bygones is bygones....he is not mine...noT matter what i did, he will noT be back...

why is it so funny?? a biG grp of liars...

laSt night, meet my friend go eat supper....enjoy talking to him @ the 24hrs coffeeshop(cck)... saw two Fat GhosTs...oopss....i am sooo soo bad...haha..noT only i say hor, he also say that..haha..so funny...enjoy talkinG to him LasT night...i never sit on bike for soo long liao..think more than 2 yrs ago ba...cos recent years always sit cars...goT shelter mah...haha..then lasT night sit on bikE agaiN..the feelinG is so gOOd....brings back all the pasT memories...

receive some1 who send me comment whom i dont know who she is....funny....and i wonder why she wanted to involve into this matter...and does she knows that she is intruding my privacy too? i only let my frd n him know my other acct... (there is 1 more ppl knows cos she is beside him)....maybe the secret is ouT of the baG...so tired....maybe there are a lot of things she didnt know...you see, even if my frds know about my story, BUT they never bother about it..they just be my good listener...if you are a good friend of hers, you should know what to do..listen to her and not by involvinG into this matter...i have a lot of gooD memories with him..and i wanted to remember it forever..noones asking me to forget it...as this is my own business....is just thoughts...thoughts....

anD abouT you telling me that she is living happily with him, thats not my business...buT there is something makes me confuse..shE said he is NOT living with her..anD you will saying she is living happily with him....huh?? why there are two different story?? so funny right? wired right? who is telling lies? i dont like people telling me lies....if you wants to know more, you should not tell lies..thats what i think..sorry being so blurt..this is me...a straight-forward girl who thinks what she says is right...

i am currently in a happy condition...cos i have found so many friends by my side....i have enjoy myself after my one month plus break up with him....actually, i started to enjoy myself from 01/09/2004 onwards...before that, i am living everyday thinking about him...all my mind full of him...but, i will not do foolish acts...i love him till now despite i like someone now..this is one thing that i am sure..i will keep all the good memeories with me...i am fine right now... anD i believe he is fine right now too..cOs to him , i am nothInG... =)

why so ChiLdish?? i am in love!!!!!

mm...i find that when a person lose control of herself, she will do all soft of stupid action to attract attention..ai yo yo..i hate that leh...just be yourself can liao..what for make so many small action for me to see? haha..haiz...lucky i am not affected cos i am in love mood again....hee...sssSSSSSSShhhhHHH....cannot tell anyone about this cos its suppose to be a secret..haha..SoRRy...

her smAll action may let people think she is childish....so do i...haha..so, whatever she do now is not my business and i should not even want to bother as i got tons of homework to do...

that special guy place an important part in my life...must jia you jia you....he lives near me...hee..oops...am i talking too much??

won or lose

"When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best."

so so so true....i treating all my past love as a failure..and i believe that without him, i will still survive ver well...actually, i do pity her....she thought that she has him back into her life again.. what she has is his body but not his heart....cos he betray his heart...so what that now he is back into her life again..it will not be the same cos he just dont want to make any changes...he is just getting use to that lifestyle liao...i won this game cos i know how to let go and searching a new love!

how are you today?

how are you today? i know you been to pub recently with your new friends and your buddies.....i am glad that your long time wishes has come true....all the best to you...may all your dreams come true...know that he went to two places last night..but after that i am not sure if he got go for supper a not...i am not very sure....

you may laugh at me foolish, you may say i stupid....but, as a friend, i know you are getting so fine that i start to find some enjoyment for myself too...yesterday, i really enjoy myself so much that i hope this day will not end so much...yesterday meet my guy friend @ 4.30am to have supper together...though it is just a short while, but, i am contented...because not everytime can meet him....

how are you today?he can only tell me that he is so damn busy that he never pick up my call...and never reply my sms..why cant you behave like my guy friend? though i and my guy friend are friends, but we still care for each other and be there for each other when we have difficulties..but you? what did you do? Run away from me...and hurt me with all your sms...

happily ever after..

me ah...mmm..happy that now i make a lot of new friends..and dont think and bother about the pasts..what is past is already past....like what i always said:whatever things happen 5 mins ago, is consider a past..dont want to drag and think about it...too sick and tired liao....mm...it will no be more harm if i keep thinking about it...sickening....to me, i think i am a very busy person with my own matters.i am able to live by myself without any guy in my life, a very strong person indeed. Not because i does not have a dream guy, but if i can not find such person, so what. Because i thinks i could do anything that a man can do.
thats me....real me...i have more men frds than women frds...so, if you want to be my frds, you better accept it.

friends for3v3r......

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE. The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone,why?" The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND T O CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

this is so so true...learn to writes all my hurts in the sand and let the wind blows away all my troubles....i have let go..and i hope you let go too..and lets be friends again....remember: friends are forever...

yoz...

yoyo...today me nothing to do @ home so, ask go orchard meet my classmate. then after that, we took bus together..keke....so boreds..i dont like to stay@ home during sat...recently makes some new friends so as to further my horizon....look forward and learn more things from my new frds...dont ever be a mountain tortoise....haha....been busy packing my room these few days..need to re-arrange..my room is very messy when it comes to tests period....haha...trying to find excuse to defend myself..=p

i hate bull**** people...

you know what? i realise that there are one type of people that i hate most. the type that i hate most is bull**** people... they likes to tell lies....5mins ago, they can say i dont like him...5 mins later, they can say i like him...omg....god, please pardon these people....they are such a good liar! s*** them lor..phew.....how are there so many liars around me? mmmm......they can lie without thinking that other people will discover the truth...i always put my trust in them and i always trust them so much...but, they misled me and make me look like a fool..they toy my feelings and trust....i think i trust them too much liao....and i tend to believe in other ppl very easily.....right now, i know they piss me off...i despice this kind of ppl....i want to forgive and forget about this thing.....and let it be a past for me....its juz another parts and parcels of my life....life have to go on...earth is still spinning.....time waits no one.....so, i better look forward and never look back ward.

why, wat, how , when, who, which...................

i would like to make wishes and hope god can hear me. firstly, i would like to wish all my friends and family members good health....secondly, i wish all my 4 term tests pass...(juz pass can liao)...thirdly, i wish i can wait for him forever and ever....cos i really love him and whatever i do, he may not know..i just want to prove to him.....last but not least, i wish him good luck in whatever he do.

love can makes people do a lot of foolish things...To Me, the most foolish things i ever done is crying and waiting for the person to be back into my life....crying can helps me to de-stress and puts me to sleep......waiting for the person to be back into my life again is very hard and difficult...cos he is using all soft of harsh words trying to wake me up, asking me not to waste time on him....................................................what is love? what do i keen to have now? HIS LOVE....i have my buddies' love and family love......

BACK OFF!!!!!!!!

hihi...its diary time again....mmm...what sould i write today...these few days, dont feel like talking to anybody....so, if anybody wants to know me or wants to find me, leave me a email. i'll get back to you asap...i think so far if anyone wants to find me, it should be my close friends.....cos they know how to find me...
i am forever in a lost..blur blur....forgetful....so, right now, i also dont know what to do..just follow what my friends ask me to do..just follow blindly....

today went out with my mum and sister...bought a few items...haha..after that, dad drive us home...phew..lucky,or else if we ever take mrt home, no space to sit..have to stand all the way home...

moOODDDDyYY.....

haiz..not in a very good mood today..wanted to find someone to scold today..haha...well, but i wont do that to my friends lah...i am not very bad....i am not sure why i am in a bad mood....ever since i move into a new environment yesterday, i feel more relaxed....no stress, no pressure..maybe i will stay there permanent...you'll never know...i mean it...cos the owner herself asks me if i am interested in living there permanent.....

yesterday, keep thinking about him...i miss him..wanted to know what is he doing and wanted to call him...and yesterday receive a message from him. he asks me to take care....i feels so sad...why he doesnt ask me to stay..if he asks me to stay, i will stay for his sake...really...and i mean it....cant sleep last night....slept @ 2.45am.....and wake up @ 11am....so tired....i wanted to sleep longer..and keep dreaming about the past..about me and him together.....wherever i go, and whatever i do, i still think of him.....

watch the movie-"13 going 30" today.its a nice show.quite funny and a bit touching...but, i did not cry. there is one couple sitting beside me, and his gf cries....haha...oops....

***hi..its me agAin..***

hi everybody, yesterday chat with my two guy friends over msn...i realise that without these two friends by my side, i dont know where i will be now....i feel hounour to have these two friends....well, actually, altogether i have 3 good guy friends by my side....but recently, something major happen between me and him that makes us behave like stranger....he starts to ignore me..never picks up my calls...5 days receive 1 sms from him only.....so sad....

anyway, i chat very happily with my two guy friends as i share a lot of untold secret with each other..haha...ooops....did i say anything out? hopefully no...as i dont wish to tell anybody about what our conversation is.....hee...sorry guys and gals.....

well, i am stress over these 2 weeks and that leds my face to have lots of pimples ah!!!!!!!!!shen ah...qiu qiu wo ba......gosh....too stress liao....must go de-stress leh...

now @ school typing this diary...keke...hopfully able to do my homework now or else my classmates going to kill me!!gtg liao tata...

omg.....

omg..omg..did i juz put married in frdster? ooo....i think i did....haha huh? i think its cool meh....only those people who knows me will know the answer...maybe because i have gone crazy or wat...ai ya, what the heck...nobody bothers....hate myself so much..tend to fall in love so easily and in the end, who ganna hurts? me lah! still got who.........what the f*** lor....why i cant let go of all these burden...why do i have to carry it with me....i dont wish to and i dont want to.... i wish i dont have to do all these things...i wish i can escape from all these problems..i wish i can be like him go boat quay pub and drink till i drunk...and forget about everything....forsake everything...wish i can go clubbing, dance like crazy.......yeah...wish i can turn the clock round and round...and we have never happen anything before!!!!!!!!!!!!!gosh....what am i doing?
gone mad....no...hopefully not.....juzt want to vent out my anger....sorry sorry...mmm...i want to remember him forever and ever......deep in my heart...he captures all my love and heart away...he is the fortunate guy.....he captuer all my loves.....no one can take away.....

deep sh**

i am falling in heels with you...i wanted to tell you i love you very much.although we have broken up, my love for you still not chnaged.remember, wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be Right Here Waiting fOr you...foRever and Ever....

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finally tests over...

finally, the tests are all over...phew...finally can take a break....and let myself cool down for a while...i am getting tired over bgr..very tiring and sianz...just want to say to him taht although you have left me for so long,i still love you.though you think i hate you, but you are wrong.i will never hate a person so easily....that's me....this is what i am..

tests..tests...tests...hopefully can pass..or else die ah..coz i every night burn mid night oil leh...

terM testS

sianz..sianzz..sianzzz...everyDaY before i go for my tests, i would sms him..hoPing he will see my sms and wishes me good luck..but, i wait and wait...still no answer from him....whY is happeninG? this is the enD of our friendship? i also dont know...

today test paper find it hard to answer..guess i am going to fail AlL my term tests paper..mama is not @ home now...but, my sis is @ home..she is waiting for me to use finish the computer.....haha..better faster tyPe....just now, go LoT 1 buy cuRRy puffs for my family memberS eat...yuMMy....haha...i loVe to buy fooDs for my family to eaT...guess i am going to be Fat agAin..no NeEd on diEt liao...