So SaD

day 29

i am so sad sad...mmm....my hp is spoilt..aLL the messages left by "him" is lost...mm...so sad...but i guess this is fated ba...why huh? cos maybe i fated to lost some of the memory that he gives me lor...haiz..so sad sad...i dont want to lost this kind of feeling lor...having to lose a friend of 5 year.i dont like this kind of feeling.its like losing something major big in my life. he is once so important in my life..in the past, we are so close.we have so much fun.imgaine as a friend for 5 years, there are so many memories that cannot be forgotten.i dont want to lost a good friend.

mm...had been working real hard..but then its not money too..cos been taking cab to work ah. cos you see, i am a pig.sleeping is my hobby.i loves to sleep.so bo bian...when i wake up, realised that i am going to be late for work, i book cab or take a bus to the nearest destination b4 changing into a cab...cos like that the cost will be cheaper..haha..

these few days, the weather is good for sleeping. but too bad, i am not able to enjoy all this enjoyment. cos i am working!!!! so sad....i am not fated...

heartleSS

day 23

i am so tired...mc for 3 days...work two jobs...every day work till i fall sick and stills not yet recover..all my friends have been asking me why am i torturing myself...am i really torturing myself? mmm...i dont know...i just know i want to work. and i want to earn big money..jusT like the movie says : SHOW ME THE MONEY!!! every night sits shuttle bus and keep coughing..my colleagues asks me am i going to die..and i replies:" yes, dying sOOn..." this coughing have been with me for 2 weeks liao...so long...so sickening..yesterday at my workplace, i vomit..there is one customer asking me if i need help...and she asks me if i feels alright...although i feel pai seh, but i am glad there is someone cares for me..my shuttle bus uncle said to me:" you should not come to work despite there is not enough manpower.." i am soft-hearted mah..so they asks me go work, and i go work lor..

get my exam results liao...even though its not that good, but at least i pass...i mean i dont want to get long service award nor would i want to stay in school for another year....so sianz...it would be sad if i never get to graduate with my classmates..my relationships with them have improve a lot lor...and i wanted to keep this kind of friendship forever..

i finally found the waY...

day 18

mmm....i finally found the way out....is to consult the doctor again..sick since sat...i have never been so sick before...so jia lat... now i am lying on my bed nuai at home doing nothing...my supervisor called me today..i told him i have sms him regarding i am not going to work today...he is like a bit pissed off...i am sorry.

cough cough cough

day 16

shit....really damn bloody shit....i keep on coughing and coughing non stop..whether in the bus or @ the workplace, i still cough...what should i do..how am i going to work this thurs? omg...what should i do? mm....should i stop working for a while...will the manager scold me?mm...i think so ba...these few days keep raining...and my moods is still the same. i miss "him". thats all...life have to go on..earth is still turning...i am getting older...so, i must change.i loves raining season...if i cries, nobody able to see it...realise my friends have some kind of fling too outside...prephas, everybody is not sure what they want for life mah...when your parents give birth to you, do you expect to fall in love? do you expect yourself to be hurt by a guy that you love deeply? mm...i am not sure...this night, my dear and my mei mei chat with me...i feel comfort...thanks for everything that you all done for me...if not...where am i? will i be doing foolish things? i bet not..i am a grown up girl..let people know i do foolish things, the 1st things they will do is to laugh @ me and say me stupid..and then say me bo liao...dont know how to think for myself and for my parents....cannot so selfish...by doing childish acts to win back a guy or a girl...i will never do and i will never forgive a person if that person ever do that...its not worth it...my throat is getting itchy...shit..mama pour for me warm water liao...so sweet...so thoughtful..so nice....thanks mama....good night mama..my mama is going to sleep...me going to watch tv...

fallen...bunny fallen...

day 13

another day has pass..and i am getting weaker and weaker..in my whole life, never get two days mc before..and now it is happening to me...what is wrong with me? why am i so weak? so big girl still never take care of myself...

suppose to go to work today..but i am too weak to move..whole day lying on bed and helping my sis doing her work...so tired....i never lie on bed for so long liao...bunny has finally falls sick liao..she tries to brave and forget all her troubles...and when she thinks she can do it, suddenly she falls ill..she is weak..she cannot take it any more liao....

mm....there was a few times bunny thinks of pig...but when she remembers pooh asks her to be strong..she has to listen to pOOh..she cannot let pOOh disappointed..pig is having a good and comfortable life..i think so ba...but i still believes there is a crack in pig's r/s...cos its not the same anymore..no matter how easy it is for pig to please "the other half". so what the heck...

aiming and targeting..

day 12,

mm....so tired..my supervisor sees me so tired while working and so, they decide to let me rest for a while by letting me sleep in the store room.wa...i have sleep for 1/2 our in the store room... yesterday didnt get to sleep....so tired..this morning 9 plus in the morning then reach home...for this whole week, i have been sleepping less than 5 hours leh..so tired...

mm...actually wanted to buy a car. but after much consideration with my dear, i think i'll save up the money and do something more useful. owning a car is not that simple after all..you have to do much consideration and preparation...so, i will change my mind.

freaky tired....

day 9

stupid me.silly me. idoit me. i am so god damn tired. holding two jobs just as last time. so god damn tired. no time to think of other things. i just feel that this one month holiday is so damn pack...so many things to do..wanted to forsake all thses things and go MIA..but i cant. i need money..money is so important to me.sleep for 6 hrs everyday then ganna wake up liao...mm...how i wish i can be like "him"...he can sleep for 19 hours a day leh...mm...so envy "him"...my new colleagues are still ok towards me..maybe i tend to be very quiet when facing with strangers..but so far, close to two colleagues...tomorow going to sleep for 2 hrs and then meet frinds go out shopping...wa...i am so freaky tired ah......

sometimes, i went pass some places, i will think of my happy moment with "him"...its just very happy and relaxing...no stress...

my dear carlie angels sms me asking me go clubbing tomorow..too bad i am working....so sorry ah, my dear angels..i promise i will find time go out with you angels ok? muacks... =p

its my life...

day 5.

mm...what can i say meh...come back home do nothing but sleep and eat...now the only thing why i stay at home is because i wanted to watch my fave. idol --qi yu wu..gosh..he is so handsome..my saliver dripping out soon..haha..disgusting right? thats me! i have found a job. and this sunday is going to be my 1st day at work..very excited leh..dont know what will happen..will i do anything wrong? mmm..will i behave like sotong? blur blur one...juz like my friend who is working in zouk.he says my face will always look like sotong..makes me so angry that i will always beat him and box him..haha..luckily, his girlfriend is not angry with me. the two of them have been working together for 3 years liao...should give them long service award leh..haha..so long never been zouk liao..wonder any changes over there..i just know that the manager over there still remains the same.everyday raining..its really let me thinks about the past.about me and him together.though the realtionship is a short one, but i know during that time, the both of us are very happy...so long never see him smile so happy...wonder how is he...but, why bother? its just a thought..for we have known each other for many years..its only sometimes that i do think of him thats all...i never think of him so often liao..cos i am not suppose to...

HooRaY!!!

DAy 5

i am having my last paper today..and my friend is having is 1st two paper today..poor him...have to wish him good luck wor..jia you jia you...later i am going out with my friend, so better write something on my blog before i forget....

mm..2 weeks ago, there is a burglar outside my house...they fellow go and steal my slipper which i bought at trendy zone..its gold in colour..but, never mind lah.. i am not going to wear it anyway..its make my legs very painful..so, i am juz wondering if that fellow wear already, leg pains a not..keke..

must pray hard that all my paper pass wor..or i die liao..i dont want to repeat my module ah...very jia lat one leh....shen ah...save me ah.....

bYe bYe Bye!!!

daY 2

"well, i'm sick and tired and i am totally wired
why cant they just leave me alone
just cause the lenght of my hair and the clothes that i wear
and the thigs that i do dont conform.."

"you've picked the wrong one to harass why dont
you stick it up your ass, piss off and get your own life"

ABOVE IS THE SONGS LYCRIS

sickening lor...having to do mY valuation paper today...going to fail ah..how huh? mm...papa comes home liao...mm...wondering who is cooking dinner today? mm....i am going FLY FLY AWAY liao..leaving this sad place..cos i know this place will hunT me for sure if i dont FLY FLY AWAY now.. going to miSS singapore...soB soB...listening to classical songs now..pOOh recommend to mE one..keke...i am a H.L.P.I.G! > _< why cant everybody just live in peace
well we've got to pull together and put an end to this insanity

-->if you never biTe mE, whY should i biTe you?

Dont treat me likE a fooL

1st novmeber : DaY 1

so darling, please dont treat me like a fooL. its been hard enough for me, getting over you. Darling, please dont treat me like you do. i'll be damned if i'm gonna let ya, Damned if i dont forget ya, So please dont treat me - like a fooL.

31th november

went marina square with lao po...saw SIX PLUS...they are from Taiwan..seriously, i never heard this band name before wor..1st time leh..they dont like taiwan people..instead, they look like china people.dinner is Thai express. back to study...receive a testi from jasOn..

30th november

pOOh come to mY home and help me install software to mY computer.thanks for the help. i appreciate it..mm...whenever he needs to help me, dont know why he will gets sick wor..pOOr pOOh...he is having bad flu leh...and then it is raining verY heavy...ganna stuck in limBang shopping centre.